Warning: #feels ahead.
Today, I went to my first morning shift at work. I have it yet again tomorrow and it isn't so bad... Still need a lot of practice but I got the bulk of things down. Oh yeah, after all of facebook went on about it then all my friends then now my work. I gave in to peer pressure and got Grand Theft Auto 5. I'm actually enjoying it but it's chewing up a craptonne of time so it will definitely be a tool to cure boredom.
The adventure days are going ahead with everything locked in.
It's quiet. peaceful. I feel as if the world is falling into pieces in my head yet everythings stable and fine. I can't seem to get the courage to ask one simple question. Opportunities come up all over the place and sometimes it's right IN my face but I never take it. Whenever I try I start mumbling or stuttering, then when asked "what?" I reply with a "nothing" or make up something. I'm new to this concept and it's gnawing at me. I never thought it would be this hard but you begin to over think the outcomes... usually you think of the worst things that could happen. I'm more afraid of making things awkward. I don't know anymore, sometimes I wait for the answer to come into my face but I know that's not going to happen unless I initiate.
For now all I can do is stall whilst I start gaining the confidence to take the next step. If I don't gather myself by a predesignated date I'll most likely fall into a wreck. Hmm... I need to get blind drunk, that should do it! :D
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